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A goal of my artwork is to find a true, meaningful way of depicting the sensations I feel daily, both emotional and physical sometimes I am standing in the burning embers of a fire and other times I am sitting on a block of ice. Often its a combination of both. As I am living with the impossible mixture of the two elements, I have tried to capture this reality and some of the feelings that result in my paintings.
My recent work is a series [Cold+Hot], which is the result of repetitive actions that become meditative exercises in consciously arranging forms, lines, and colors into compositions. These paintings are the result of a long and difficult process of dealing with the burning pain and often must be produced using stiff fingers and hands, where at times the lightest weights of a brush become too heavy to hold. The small forms invented in my drawings during my meditative exercises evolve into drafts of future products. I invent these forms by expressing current feelings of my body--sometimes sharp, sometimes hotand developing forms appropriated from body sensation. Mechanical forms also occasionally creep into the compositions as representations of my loss of feeling.
As a person with high spirit and very positive views about life, I choose to accept the pain as a blessing. I decided to paint again to reflect my feelings of fear, gratitude, and hope. I fear that I could lose body functions again. I feel enormously grateful for the recovery despite the pain. And fortunately, hope is a natural gift in order to survive, and I have it in abundance.